Medical Trauma: How to Move Forward

Medical trauma is a thing. Whether it is a new term to you or you have personal experience with it; medical trauma is definitely worth discussing. What is Medical Trauma? Believe it or not, I couldn’t find one general definition for medical trauma. However, according to the National Child Traumatic Stress network: Pediatric medical traumatic…

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My 400 LB Life

My 400 lb life may seem like click bait; but I promise you it is not! My name is AP and I really am 400+ lbs…440 (depending on the day lol) to be exact. Most of you reading this are probably cringing at the very thought of ever being my size. It’s probably made you…

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Body Diversity Is Not About Condoning a Lifestyle

If there’s one thing I encounter daily on my social media, it’s the accusation that my existing in a fat body means I condone an unhealthy lifestyle. God forbid I’m not lamenting on how ugly I am, how dissatisfied I am with my looks and oooh how much better my life would be if I…

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#YouTube: GRWM Chatting Intentional Weight Loss

If you’re familiar with the “plus community” then you are familiar with how diverse the opinion of intentional weight loss is. The plus community is made up of an array of belief systems some of which are vehemently against losing weight on purpose.  In this video today I’m “weighing in” with my opinion!

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Breaking the Myth of Promoting Obesity

One of the challenges of being a visible fat body is being subject to all sorts of accusations about my lifestyle, my health and my right to exist happily. One charge that gets thrown around constantly is “you’re promoting obesity.” I always wondered how a fat person posting a cute outfit is somehow promoting a…

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Dear Fat Girl: Stop Asking for Acceptance

I’ve been thinking about how to write this for months. It’s a topic that pops into my head quite often, especially when I find myself scrolling social media or having conversations with my fat friends. I started not to write about it because I didn’t want to not be able to articulate thoroughly what I…

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Unpacking my Abelism- How My Disability Taught Me

Ableism is defined by the Merriam-Webster dictionary as: “discrimination or prejudice against individuals with disabilities”. While that definition may seem neat and succinct; ableism behavior is so much deeper than that. Beyond the most obvious forms of prejudice such as believing people with disabilities aren’t capable of living life; there is the subtle aspects of…

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Breaking the Myth of Beach Body

As a child, my mom used to bring us to this man made beach/lake in Naugatuck, CT called Hop Brook Lake. I spent a good chunk of every summer there splashing around and having a blast and never really giving much thought to a “beach body” because I was a kid and doing what kids…

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Let’s Chat: Fat Phobia & Size Privilege

I was scrolling through Instagram trying to decide why I bother to utilize the app when I stumbled upon the following post: Going from a size 28 to 18 has given me a tiny glimpse into how fat phobia has affected me my whole life. Here’s an example: . First, for those of you who…

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Life After Thirties: Facing My Insecurities

I remember my twenties like it was yesterday [queues melodramatic music]. Ok, so maybe my twenties wasn’t that long ago; but with all that’s happened in the last few years, my body certainly feels like it.   In my twenties I felt like I had an unlimited reserve of energy and youthfulness, even with having…

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