It was a mere 2 months ago that I was giving ya’ll the dramatic update on my life. And now I’m back with some more, so let’s get into it. I’ll be honest, content creating whether on a blog or on another social media platform is stressful. I mean, if it’s not an algorithm over there, it’s SEO over here. Can I be honest in saying that I am just bucking against the system and returning to what I love- WRITING.
Writing in it’s purest and most earnest form. I never started blogging with the intent of it going anywhere phenomenal. I started blogging because it gave me a place to flesh out my thoughts and share the lessons I’ve been learning along the journey in my life. Now grant it, writing has opened the door to paid opportunities, ones I’m super grateful for. But do I care to count subheadings or key words? Absolutely not.
So in the spirit of me just doing what I love, here’s where I’m at with things.
I Finished School Early
4 months early to be exact. I thought I was a goner for sure; but I kept my nose in the books, applied my work ethic to all my assignments and my capstone project and ended the school program with a 4.0 GPA. Will I ever go back to school to pursue a bachelor or a higher degree? No. I wasn’t raised to think that college was the end all be all. I always thought that it made more sense for me to take courses specific to a career that I wanted, and that’s what I did. I have no desire to pay astronomical amounts of money to take core classes along with fluffers like philosophy etc.
I am proud of how far I’ve come from being the pregnant, teenage dropout to someone who is contributing to my household in a meaningful way doing something that I desired to do. That’s a blessing and a privilege, one that I do not take lightly.
I Got a Job!
And just like that, just 3 weeks after the completion of my paralegal certificate, I snagged a job at a law firm somewhere in Atlanta. I won’t give much more detail than that, besides the fact that it’s personal injury tort law and I’m truly enjoying myself. Just 6 or 7 months ago I was being told left and right by law firms that my “lack of education” was a deterrent despite my experience. For the last 3 weeks I’ve been getting up and going to a job that thus far I’m truly enjoying in a field I want to be in.
I’ll take that.
And The Other Stuff
There’s a million other things happening in my life right now. I want to tell ya’ll that I am this picture perfect example of Zen and peace. But that would be a lie. My mental health is still something I have to contend with. And right now that means anxiety is a huge issue for me.
Do I have coping skills? Yes. Am I applying them? Yes. I have a support system within my husband, my therapist and the elders in my congregation. But the thing that brings me the most peace is prayer. That may not be everybody’s thing and I respect that; but it’s mine. All these things in place, work beautifully might I add; but alas I am still an imperfect human navigating feelings that sometimes feel too big for this body and mind.
But I’m forever a fighter until my last breath; so I’m here.
The Wrap Up
As complex as all the facets of my life are, I am still abundantly grateful for the blessings bestowed upon myself and my family. Between ugly cries there are brilliant smiles. I’m moving with grace of a hippopotamus (google them) and that’s not a bad thing. How I decide to navigate this blog, my internet business and presence; it’s up in there air.
I’m just not hungry enough for fame or prominence to chase anything that does not feel like it’s true to me. I’m grateful for the people who show up and support my beauty brand and this blog. But thanks is all that I owe, nothing more and nothing less.
I choose to self care in a way that’s meaningful, not for show; and that means focusing my energies on the things that serve me spiritually, emotionally and mentally. And I love that for me and my family.
Until Next Time,