Hey ya’ll come on in and have a seat, make yourself comfortable and let’s chat. For weeks I’ve been trying to prep blog articles like I always do. Typically my content is scheduled out weeks in advance because I like being organized and knowing that my blog is scheduled. It’s the control freak in me (thanks mommy if you’re reading this.)
However, if I’m completely honest, I am struggling to write.
I know right? Me?! Writers’ block? Yea ME. And if you know me in real life you know this ain’t my first merry go round. Depression can do one or two things for me; cause my creativity to be manic or drain me of all juice. Right now I’m dealing with the latter.
I’m still adjusting to meds; and that is a process that can take me anywhere from 6-8 weeks before I feel a modicum of normalcy. Right now I’m just grateful to not breaking into crying spells every afternoon like clockwork (see, I practice gratitude as much as possible).
Don’t get me wrong, I am creating content on my social media platforms to hold up to my contractual obligations; but these days even that feels taxing. Surprisingly makeup application still brings me joy because it’s therapeutic so at a minimum I’m still giving ya’ll slayed makeup looks!
I’m definitely giving my extended size ladies the encouragement to take fashion risks and step out on confidence!
But more important than any of these things; I’m truly allowing myself the grace to heal by taking it one moment at a time. I am working wholeheartedly not to feel guilt when I can’t perform in the way that I desire to. That’s not easy for me but I know it’s necessary to make a practice of it until it is a habit.
I never want to be the person heralding mental health treatment and not be taking my own advice! I look forward to a time when I’m back to feeling like me. Until then though, I am going to continue to do the work until I’m there.
On a bright note, my son recently created a T-Shirt line and has a store J Young Merch. His first shirt release is the Tikking Time Bomb in honor of bring awareness to Tourette’s Syndrome. Feel free to shop it or spread the word!
Until next time,