I’m Allowed To Love This Body

The title might seem misleading, so let me clarify by saying I’m talking to myself. Why would I do that? Because sometimes I need reminders.

I spent a good portion of my life being taught my body type was not worthy of love. That in order to love it I must pummel it, sculpt it and whittle it down to a more accepting physique.

Needless to say, even at my smallest I was never beautiful by commercial or societal standards. Little by little I began to change the narrative of what it meant to love my body as is; but as of late my pain has been working against me and threatening to undo all that I’ve worked so hard for.

Lately I’ve had this desire to shrink. Embarrassed by my limp, and my inability to stand for long periods of time, and the bouts of inflammation and swelling that disfigure my body into something I don’t recognize; I’ve been aching not to be noticed.

That’s a far cry from the person I was starting out on my journey to practice self love. I know that I am not the only person suffering from the things I do; but regardless of that how I feel physically can really make me feel isolated.

Today I decided I would photograph in this bright beautiful 2 piece set from local Atlanta Designer Richee Luxe.

Everything about the pieces she designs screams ‘here I am!’ unapologetically. And to be honest,I needed to feel like that today. My daughter photographed me, and my husband and son came for moral support. There is a true sense of security that comes from having my family around.

This set is really simple in its design, but its the bright pink that really makes it pop! It was uber comfortable and cute! So much so that I wore out when we went out to ice cream afterwards.

I know that I have to take it one day at a time and today; today was a good day.